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May 21, 2025 - The Reassurance of Small, Predictable Joys

Today, I want to reflect on the quiet reassurance I’ve found in small, predictable joys—and how they’ve helped me feel steady while living with Schizoaffective Disorder. When the mind feels uncertain and moods shift without warning, these gentle, recurring moments offer a kind of safety—a soft place to land.

This week, my predictable joy came in the form of an evening ritual: the sound of water boiling for tea, the scent of something familiar steeping, the way my favorite mug warmed my hands. I didn’t need the moment to be extraordinary. I just needed it to be there, like it always is.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I sat in that quiet with my tea and realized how these tiny joys hold more power than we give them credit for. They may not fix everything—but they remind me that comfort can be counted on. That not everything changes. That some goodness stays.

Small, predictable joys—whether it’s a morning walk, a favorite sweater, or a familiar song—become anchors when everything else feels unsteady. They don’t ask anything from me. They just show up, again and again, offering softness and routine.

To those reading this, I encourage you to notice one small joy that repeats itself in your day. Don’t underestimate it. Let it be your quiet reassurance, your little breath of peace.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence is one of those steady joys for me. Together, let’s keep finding comfort in the little things that remind us we’re still safe, still loved, and still here.

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May 19, 2025 - The Steadiness of Breathing with Intention

Today, I want to reflect on the steadiness I’ve found in simply breathing with intention—and how that one quiet act has brought me comfort in moments of emotional noise while living with Schizoaffective Disorder. When everything else feels like too much, my breath becomes the one thing I can return to.

This week, I practiced pausing in the middle of tense moments—placing a hand on my chest, closing my eyes, and slowly breathing in and out. I didn’t try to control or deepen it at first. I just noticed it. That awareness alone helped shift the energy. From panic to presence. From overwhelm to just one inhale, one exhale.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I was lying awake at night, my thoughts too loud to rest. I turned to breath—not as a cure, but as a companion. I counted in for four, held for four, and breathed out for four. The rhythm calmed me—not perfectly, but enough. Enough to soften the edges of the night.

Intentional breathing has reminded me that I don’t need to fix everything at once. I just need to come back to now. To the body that carries me. To the breath that proves I’m still here.

To those reading this, I encourage you to take a few intentional breaths today. Let them be slow, without expectation. Let them steady you. Your breath is always with you—constant, forgiving, and yours.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence helps me breathe a little easier. Together, let’s return to this steady, sacred rhythm and find strength in something so beautifully simple.

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May 16, 2025 - The Grounding in Feeling My Feet on the Floor

Today, I want to reflect on the grounding power of something incredibly simple: feeling my feet on the floor. Living with Schizoaffective Disorder means my thoughts can sometimes feel untethered, swirling or stretched far beyond the moment. But pressing my awareness down into my feet has helped bring me back—to my body, to the present, to now.

This week, during a moment of rising anxiety, I paused and stood still. I let my bare feet rest flat against the ground and gently reminded myself, “I am here.” I didn’t try to fix the feeling or change my thoughts—I just connected downward, feeling the solidness beneath me. It made me feel safe, rooted, and real.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I was brushing my teeth, of all things. I became aware of how I was standing—shoulders tense, mind racing. I softened my stance, felt the floor beneath me, and took a deep breath. It was a quiet but powerful shift.

Feeling my feet reminds me that I have a place in this world. That I’m held by something steady, even when my emotions aren’t. It’s a tiny act of grounding I can return to any time, anywhere.

To those reading this, I encourage you to pause today and feel your feet on the floor. Wiggle your toes. Press your heels down. Let your body know: We are safe. We are here.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence helps me stay grounded when the world feels uncertain. Together, let’s honor the strength in simple things—and the healing that begins one step at a time.

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May 14, 2025 - The Quiet Freedom of Letting Go of Perfection

Today, I want to reflect on the quiet freedom I’ve found in letting go of perfection—and how releasing that weight has brought me more peace while navigating life with Schizoaffective Disorder. For so long, I measured my worth by how perfectly I could hold things together. But I’m learning that peace doesn’t come from perfection—it comes from permission.

This week, I made a mistake on something small and, instead of spiraling into shame, I took a breath and said, “This is okay.” I reminded myself that I am allowed to be human, that flaws aren’t failures—they’re signs I’m showing up, trying, living. That shift in how I responded made all the difference.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I reread an old journal entry that was messy, scribbled, and raw—but also deeply honest. In its imperfection, it felt more beautiful than anything polished. That reminded me that truth often lives in the rough edges.

Letting go of perfection allowed me to show up more fully. It gave me space to rest without guilt, to create without pressure, and to connect without fear of not being “enough.”

To those reading this, I encourage you to loosen your grip on the idea of doing everything right. Let something be a little undone, a little unpolished, a little more real. There’s freedom in softness.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that I am loved in my wholeness, not just in my successes. Together, let’s embrace the quiet freedom that comes when we stop chasing perfect—and start choosing peace.

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May 12, 2025 - The Peace of Watching Light Move Through a Room

Today, I want to reflect on the quiet peace I’ve found in simply watching the light move through a room—and how this soft awareness has helped calm my mind while living with Schizoaffective Disorder. There’s something healing about letting time pass slowly, without pressure, just observing how sunlight shifts across a wall or dances through the curtains.

This week, I sat in my usual corner and noticed how the morning light touched everything gently—my books, my hands, the floor. I didn’t reach for my phone or distract myself. I just watched. It felt like a quiet kind of companionship, as if the light itself was saying, “You don’t have to do anything right now—just be.”

One of the most meaningful moments came in the late afternoon, when the golden glow turned the room amber. The stillness made me feel safe, almost cradled by the simplicity of it all. The light didn’t need to be perfect. I didn’t need to be either.

Watching the light reminded me that time moves in waves, not deadlines. That beauty doesn’t always announce itself—it often drifts in silently, waiting to be noticed.

To those reading this, I encourage you to take a moment today to sit with the light. Watch where it falls. Let it remind you that there’s no rush, that quiet beauty surrounds you, even in the stillest moments.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that light is always returning, even on the dimmest days. Together, let’s find peace in the slow movement of time—and the soft illumination it brings.

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May 9, 2025 - The Steadying Power of Repetition

Today, I want to reflect on the steadying power of repetition—and how returning to the same action, phrase, or routine has brought me comfort while living with Schizoaffective Disorder. In a life that can feel unpredictable, repetition becomes something I can rely on.

This week, I noticed how much calmer I felt after repeating a simple phrase each morning: “Today, I will move at my own pace.” I whispered it to myself while brushing my teeth, making breakfast, or stepping outside. The words became like footsteps—gentle reminders that I didn’t need to rush or prove anything.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I repeated a short breathing practice I’ve used for years. Inhale for four, exhale for four. The rhythm of it quieted my thoughts. That steady pattern became more than a technique—it became a promise to stay with myself, no matter how stormy the inside felt.

Repetition has helped me feel anchored. Whether it’s the routine of making tea in the same mug, journaling at the same time each night, or listening to the same calming song, these repeated actions say, “You’ve done this before. You can do it again.”

To those reading this, I encourage you to embrace a small, comforting repetition. Find something familiar to return to today—let it be a thread of calm through whatever the day holds.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence, too, is a kind of repetition—steadfast, grounding, and deeply appreciated. Together, let’s honor the healing that comes from doing the same gentle thing, again and again.

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May 7, 2025 - The Clarity Found in Cleaning Something Small

Today, I want to reflect on the clarity I’ve found in cleaning something small—and how even a simple act like wiping a surface or tidying a corner has helped me feel more steady while living with Schizoaffective Disorder. When my mind feels chaotic, bringing order to one small space reminds me that I still have agency, even when everything else feels out of place.

This week, I cleaned out a drawer that had slowly become a quiet source of stress. I didn’t rush or expect a transformation. I just sorted, tossed, and made space. As I did, I noticed how my thoughts seemed to settle too—how clearing physical clutter made emotional room I hadn’t realized I needed.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I looked at the finished space. It wasn’t perfect, but it was calmer. I was calmer. That small accomplishment became a symbol: I can bring care into my life, one act at a time.

Cleaning something small reminded me that healing doesn’t always come from big gestures. Sometimes, it’s found in wiping down a table, folding a blanket, or making the bed. It’s in reclaiming space—externally and internally—with quiet, deliberate love.

To those reading this, I encourage you to choose one small area to care for today. Let it reflect the care you’re offering yourself. Let it remind you that clarity and calm can begin with a single, thoughtful act.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that small steps are still sacred. Together, let’s embrace the clarity found in doing something small—with intention, gentleness, and grace.

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May 5, 2025 - The Quiet Comfort of Familiar Words

Today, I want to reflect on the quiet comfort I’ve found in returning to familiar words—phrases, quotes, poems, or passages that feel like home when everything else feels uncertain. Living with Schizoaffective Disorder means some days are unpredictable, but the words I carry with me offer something steady to hold onto.

This week, I reread a favorite line from a book I’ve loved for years. I’ve read it dozens of times before, but somehow it reached me differently this time—softer, deeper. Like it knew exactly what I needed to hear in that moment. Those words reminded me that healing doesn’t always come from something new; sometimes it comes from returning to what we already know.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I whispered a simple affirmation I’ve been using for a long time: “I am doing my best, and that is enough.” Saying it out loud felt like wrapping myself in a blanket woven from kindness. I didn’t need to believe it fully—I just needed to hear it.

Familiar words are like emotional anchors. They remind me of who I am, how far I’ve come, and that I’ve survived hard days before. They become a conversation between my past and present selves, carrying strength across time.

To those reading this, I encourage you to revisit words that once brought you comfort. A poem, a note, a song lyric—let it speak to you again. Let it remind you that you are not alone, and that the words we return to often return the favor by holding us up.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence is one of those familiar comforts to me. Together, let’s honor the healing power of words that stay with us—even when everything else feels far away.

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May 2, 2025 - The Peace of Letting the Day Unfold Naturally

Today, I want to reflect on the peace I’ve found in letting the day unfold naturally—without trying to control every moment or predict every feeling—as part of living gently with Schizoaffective Disorder. Some days are clearer than others, and when I allow space for that uncertainty, I find a quieter kind of strength.

This week, I set aside my usual rigid plans and simply moved through the day based on what I needed, moment by moment. Instead of forcing myself into a schedule, I asked myself simple questions: What do I need right now? What would feel good next? Some answers surprised me—and that was okay.

One of the most meaningful moments came when a wave of sadness hit unexpectedly. Instead of trying to “fix” it or push it away, I let it be part of the day. I rested, I listened to soft music, and I reminded myself that not every moment has to be bright to be worthwhile.

Letting the day unfold naturally showed me that even without perfect plans, there is still beauty, connection, and care waiting. I don’t have to map every step to find meaning. Sometimes, meaning reveals itself when I loosen my grip and trust the flow.

To those reading this, I encourage you to loosen your plans a little today, if you can. Let yourself move slowly, curiously. Allow the day to be what it wants to be, not what you think it should be. You might find a quiet kind of peace waiting for you there.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that even unplanned moments can hold extraordinary softness. Together, let’s embrace the peace of letting life unfold with patience, presence, and trust.

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April 30, 2025 - The Quiet Hope in Finishing What I Started

Today, I want to reflect on the quiet hope I feel in finishing something I started—and how seeing things through, even in small ways, has been a meaningful part of living with Schizoaffective Disorder. Some days, the simple act of finishing feels like a triumph all its own.

This week, I completed a small project I had been slowly working on: organizing a corner of my room that had long been left unfinished. It wasn’t a grand task, but as I placed the last item where it belonged, I felt a deep sense of satisfaction. It wasn’t about perfection; it was about honoring my effort, honoring my persistence.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I looked around afterward and realized: I stayed with myself through the process. I didn’t abandon the task when it got tiring. I moved slowly, I took breaks, but I finished—and that showed me how capable I am, even when doubt tries to tell me otherwise.

Finishing something—anything—reminds me that progress can be quiet, steady, and deeply personal. It’s not about impressing anyone else. It’s about rebuilding trust with myself, piece by piece.

To those reading this, I encourage you to finish one small thing today, if you can. Celebrate it, no matter how tiny it may seem. Every step you complete is a thread in the larger fabric of your strength.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that each small finish line matters. Together, let’s celebrate the quiet, hopeful victories that often go unseen but are deeply, powerfully real.

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April 28, 2025 - The Still Comfort of Holding Warmth

Today, I want to reflect on the still comfort I’ve found in simply holding warmth—whether it’s a mug between my hands, sunlight on my skin, or a blanket wrapped around my shoulders. In moments when my emotions feel unsteady or my thoughts move too fast, physical warmth has become a quiet reminder that I am safe, here, and alive.

This week, I found myself resting with a heated wrap across my shoulders during an anxious evening. The weight and heat calmed me more than words could. I didn’t need to solve anything in that moment—I just needed to feel supported, even in this small, physical way.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I let the morning light fall across my lap as I sat near the window. I didn’t move. I just felt the warmth settle into my body. It reminded me that sometimes comfort doesn’t come from doing—it comes from allowing.

Holding warmth, in whatever form, connects me back to the present. It helps quiet the mind, slow the heart, and soften the edges of a hard day. It’s a gentle language of care, and I’m learning to speak it more fluently—with myself.

To those reading this, I encourage you to find something warm to hold today. Let it be a soft, grounding gesture. A pause. A way to say to yourself, “I am here, and I am okay.”

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence is a kind of warmth too—steady, comforting, and real. Together, let’s honor the healing found in simple things, and the stillness that grows when we hold them close.

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April 25, 2025 - The Soft Strength in Asking for Space

Today, I want to reflect on the soft strength I’ve found in asking for space—and how this quiet act of self-advocacy has supported my healing while living with Schizoaffective Disorder. Sometimes, the most loving thing I can do for myself is step back and breathe, without explanation or apology.

This week, I needed space. Space from screens, from conversation, even from my own inner expectations. Instead of pushing through or pretending everything was fine, I let someone close to me know: “I just need a little time to recharge.” Saying those words felt both vulnerable and powerful.

One of the most meaningful moments came when that request was met with kindness. No pressure. No questions. Just a nod of understanding. It reminded me that taking care of myself doesn’t mean I’m pushing people away—it means I’m making room to return to them whole.

Asking for space isn’t about withdrawal—it’s about creating room to rest, reflect, and reconnect. It’s setting a boundary rooted in self-respect, not fear. And in that space, I often find clarity I didn’t know I needed.

To those reading this, I encourage you to give yourself permission to ask for space when you need it. You don’t have to earn it. You don’t have to explain it. You’re allowed to take up space—and to retreat from it too, when that’s what your heart calls for.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that I can return as I am, again and again. Together, let’s honor the soft strength in stepping back when we need to, and the healing that can bloom in the quiet.

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April 23, 2025 - The Calm in Doing One Thing at a Time

Today, I want to reflect on the calm I’ve found in doing just one thing at a time—and how this gentle approach has helped ease my mind while living with Schizoaffective Disorder. When thoughts are racing and emotions feel layered, focusing on a single task becomes an anchor.

This week, I made a conscious effort to slow down and give my full attention to whatever I was doing. Washing dishes, brushing my hair, folding laundry—I turned each task into a quiet ritual. I noticed how much more peaceful the moment became when I wasn’t trying to multitask or think five steps ahead.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I was making tea. Instead of checking my phone or planning the rest of my day, I simply watched the water boil. I listened to the tiny bubbling sounds, felt the warmth of the steam, and waited. That moment of focus grounded me more than I expected.

Doing one thing at a time reminded me that I don’t need to carry everything at once. It’s okay to move slowly. It’s okay to pause between steps. I’m still moving forward—even if I’m doing so gently.

To those reading this, I encourage you to let yourself focus on just one thing today. Let it be enough. Let it be a moment of mindfulness, a gift of calm in the middle of everything else.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that healing doesn’t have to be fast or loud. Together, let’s embrace the steady peace that comes from doing one thing—fully, kindly, and without rush.

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April 21, 2025 - The Stillness in Watching the World Wake Up

Today, I want to reflect on the stillness I’ve found in watching the world wake up—and how those early moments of quiet light have helped me feel more grounded while living with Schizoaffective Disorder. There’s something sacred about the morning before the world begins to rush, when everything feels softer, slower, and more forgiving.

This week, I made a quiet commitment to wake just a little earlier—not to be productive, but to simply be present. I watched the sky shift from blue to gold, listened to birds begin their song, and felt the hush of a world not yet stirred by noise. In that space, I didn’t need to be anything but awake and breathing.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I stepped outside just after sunrise. The air was cool, the ground still damp, and the light touched everything like a whisper. I stood there with my hands in my pockets, not thinking, not solving—just existing. And in that stillness, I felt safe.

Watching the world wake up reminded me that each day begins quietly, with softness before momentum. And I, too, am allowed to begin slowly—gently unfolding into the day rather than leaping into it.

To those reading this, I encourage you to witness the morning if you can. Even just once. Watch the light arrive. Listen to the silence shift. Let the stillness remind you that every new day holds the possibility of peace.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence is a kind of light in my life. Together, let’s embrace the stillness of morning and carry that quiet into whatever the day may bring.

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April 18, 2025 - The Quiet Strength of Being Gentle with Myself

Today, I want to reflect on the quiet strength I’ve discovered in being gentle with myself—especially on the days that feel heavy or unclear. Living with Schizoaffective Disorder means some days are simply harder than others, and I’m learning that self-gentleness isn’t weakness—it’s a brave and necessary form of care.

This week, I had a day where everything felt distant and disconnected. My thoughts were scattered, my energy low. In the past, I might have pushed through, criticized myself, or tried to “snap out of it.” But instead, I softened. I let myself rest. I whispered, “It’s okay. You’re allowed to feel this.”

One of the most meaningful moments came when I chose not to force a smile or productivity. I wrapped myself in a blanket, let the silence be enough, and gave myself credit simply for being here. That kindness, offered inward, settled something in me I didn’t even know was aching.

Being gentle meant listening to my body, lowering my expectations, and reminding myself that I don’t have to perform strength to still have it. Gentleness is strength—it’s the kind that nurtures, steadies, and heals.

To those reading this, I encourage you to offer yourself gentleness today. Speak to yourself the way you would a dear friend. Let rest be okay. Let softness be strength. Let your healing be slow and sacred.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that we don’t have to be hard on ourselves to grow. Together, let’s honor the quiet, enduring strength in being gentle—with our thoughts, our bodies, and our hearts.

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April 16, 2025 - The Ease of Letting the Day Be Simple

Today, I want to reflect on the ease I found in letting the day be simple—and how giving myself permission to not do everything has been an act of kindness while living with Schizoaffective Disorder. There is strength in not overloading a day. There is gentleness in saying, “Today, I’ll just breathe and be.”

This week, I let one of my days unfold without a list, without expectations. I made space for rest, soft music, and slow movement. There were no goals to chase, just little moments to notice—a warm drink, light falling through the window, a quiet stretch in the afternoon. That simplicity brought me peace.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I caught myself feeling guilty for “not doing enough.” But instead of giving in to that pressure, I responded with compassion. I reminded myself that healing and living don’t always need to look productive. Sometimes, being gentle with myself is the most important thing I can do.

Letting the day be simple doesn’t mean the day isn’t meaningful. It means I am listening to what I truly need—stillness, softness, room to breathe. And in that, I often discover unexpected clarity and calm.

To those reading this, I encourage you to let one day be light. Remove the pressure. Cancel what can wait. Let peace be enough. You don’t need to earn your rest—you already deserve it.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that simplicity is not a step back—it’s often exactly what the heart needs. Together, let’s embrace the ease of letting the day be simple and let that be more than enough.

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April 14, 2025 - The Safety in Familiar Rituals

Today, I want to reflect on the safety I’ve found in familiar rituals—those small, repeated acts that offer structure, comfort, and reassurance as I navigate life with Schizoaffective Disorder. These rituals don’t need to be complex or dramatic. Sometimes, they’re as simple as how I make my bed, the way I start my mornings, or the quiet rhythm of winding down at night.

This week, I paid extra attention to a ritual I didn’t even realize had become part of my healing. Each evening, I light the same candle, sip the same warm drink, and listen to the same soft playlist. This routine, so subtle and repetitive, helps my body and mind understand that the day is closing. That it’s okay to slow down now. That I’m safe.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I returned to this ritual after a difficult day. Even though I felt scattered and tired, going through these motions—lighting the candle, hearing the first note of the music—brought me back to myself. I didn’t have to think or explain. I just had to show up.

Familiar rituals remind me that consistency can exist even when emotions feel unpredictable. They provide gentle signposts through the fog, saying, “You’ve been here before, and you know how to care for yourself through this.”

To those reading this, I encourage you to find or return to a ritual that feels like home. It can be anything that brings you comfort—a bedtime routine, a morning moment of stillness, even the way you fold your blanket. Let it remind you that you are cared for.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence is one of the rituals I’ve come to treasure. Together, let’s embrace the safety in the familiar and the quiet strength of showing up, again and again.

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April 11, 2025 - The Strength in Letting Things Be

Today, I want to reflect on the strength I’ve discovered in simply letting things be. Living with Schizoaffective Disorder often brings waves of thoughts and emotions that demand answers, explanations, or solutions—but lately, I’ve been learning that not everything needs to be fixed. Some things just need space.

This week, I caught myself trying to overanalyze a feeling I couldn’t quite name. I sat with it, wanting to label it, understand it, solve it. But eventually, I stopped. I let it exist without judgment, without a timeline, without pressure. That pause—choosing not to fight it—offered unexpected peace.

One of the most meaningful moments came during a walk, when I noticed how the clouds moved without resistance. They didn’t try to be anything other than what they were—just passing through. I realized I could do the same with some of my thoughts: acknowledge them, then let them drift without clinging or controlling.

Letting things be doesn’t mean giving up—it means allowing life to unfold without forcing a shape it’s not ready to take. It means trusting that uncertainty doesn’t always require immediate action, and that sometimes stillness is its own kind of strength.

To those reading this, I encourage you to give yourself permission to let something be today. A question you don’t have an answer for, a feeling you can’t explain, a plan that isn’t coming together—breathe, and let it be.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that I don’t have to carry everything at once. Together, let’s embrace the quiet power of patience, presence, and the freedom of letting things unfold in their own time.

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April 9, 2025 - The Quiet Joy of Watching Something Bloom

Today, I want to reflect on the quiet joy I’ve found in watching something bloom—how witnessing even the smallest signs of growth has brought me comfort and perspective while living with Schizoaffective Disorder. There’s a calm, patient beauty in watching a flower unfurl, a bud open, or a tree begin to leaf again.

This week, I noticed a flower slowly opening on my windowsill. Each day it changed—subtly, gently—without any rush. It didn’t ask for applause or attention. It just existed, transforming at its own pace. Watching it reminded me that healing works in much the same way: not all at once, but in quiet layers over time.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I found myself smiling at a tiny sprout pushing through the soil in a nearby garden. That little green thread of life reminded me that growth doesn’t have to be loud to be powerful. Even when we feel like we’re standing still, something inside us is unfolding.

This simple act of observation brought me back to the present. When my thoughts were too loud, the slow bloom reminded me to breathe slower, to soften, to trust in what’s happening beneath the surface.

To those reading this, I encourage you to find something small that’s growing—whether in nature, in your home, or even in yourself. Let it be a symbol of quiet strength, of soft beginnings, of beauty that takes its time.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that I, too, am blooming in my own way. Together, let’s embrace the quiet joy of growth—petal by petal, moment by moment.

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April 7, 2025 - The Gentle Reset of Fresh Air

Today, I want to reflect on the gentle reset that comes from simply stepping outside and breathing in fresh air. While managing Schizoaffective Disorder, I’ve found that even the smallest shift in environment—like opening a window or taking a short walk—can offer a quiet sense of renewal.

This week, I made an effort to step outside each day, even if just for a moment. I didn’t go far or stay long. Sometimes I just stood on the porch, closed my eyes, and took a few deep breaths. The air—cool, earthy, alive—helped me feel like I was pressing a soft reset button on a day that felt heavy.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I opened the window after a long, silent afternoon. As the breeze moved through the room, I felt like I could exhale, like something had shifted. It reminded me that healing doesn’t always come from doing more—but from allowing in something simple, natural, and real.

Fresh air also brought me back to my body. I noticed my shoulders soften, my breath deepen, my heart slow just a little. That presence—even fleeting—was enough to remind me that I’m still here, still trying, and that’s more than enough.

To those reading this, I encourage you to invite in a little air today. Step outside, open a window, or just pause and breathe. Let the world remind you that movement and lightness are always waiting, just beyond the door.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence is like a breath of fresh air in my life. Together, let’s embrace the small resets that nature offers—and the quiet strength they bring.

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April 4, 2025 - The Soft Power of Saying “Maybe Later”

Today, I want to reflect on the soft power of saying “maybe later,” and how giving myself permission to pause has helped me manage the overwhelm that can come with Schizoaffective Disorder. Not everything needs to be done right now. Some things can wait. And that choice—to delay without guilt—can be deeply healing.

This week, I noticed how often I pressured myself to respond immediately, fix something quickly, or push through discomfort. But instead of forcing myself to act, I gently said, “Maybe later.” And each time I did, I felt a little more in control, a little more at peace.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I was spiraling over a list of things I thought I should be doing. Instead of diving in with panic, I looked at the list and quietly told myself, “You can come back to this when you’re ready.” That small grace created space for me to breathe—and when I did return, I approached it with a calmer heart.

Saying “maybe later” doesn’t mean avoidance. It means listening to myself, honoring my limits, and trusting that I will return to what matters when I have the energy to give it the care it deserves.

To those reading this, I encourage you to try softening your day with this phrase. It’s okay to rest. It’s okay to pause. It’s okay to not have the answer or the energy right now. Let “maybe later” be a kindness you offer yourself.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that I don’t have to do everything at once. Together, let’s embrace the quiet strength of waiting—gently, mindfully, and with love.

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April 2, 2025 - The Peace in Rearranging My Space

Today, I want to reflect on the sense of peace I found in rearranging my space, and how this simple shift in my surroundings helped me feel more in control while managing my Schizoaffective Disorder. Sometimes, when my inner world feels scattered, changing my outer world—just a little—can bring clarity and calm.

This week, I moved a few things around in my room. I didn’t buy anything new or do anything dramatic—I just shifted my desk closer to the window, organized a drawer that had become chaotic, and placed a few comforting items where I could see them more easily. Somehow, these small changes made everything feel lighter.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I sat at my newly positioned desk and watched the morning light spill across it. That small decision to face the sun instead of a wall became a metaphor: I could choose to face light, to invite it in, even if just a little at a time.

Rearranging also reminded me that I have the power to change how I experience the world around me. When so much feels out of my control, adjusting my environment—even in small, intentional ways—helps me feel more settled, more present, more safe.

To those reading this, I encourage you to try shifting your space in a way that brings you comfort. It could be as simple as moving a chair, lighting a candle in a new spot, or adding a soft object that makes you feel at ease. Let your space reflect what you need right now.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that change doesn’t have to be big to be meaningful. Together, let’s embrace the peace that comes from gently rearranging what’s around us to support what’s within.

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March 31, 2025 - The Reflection in Turning the Page

Today, I want to reflect on the feeling of turning a page—literally and symbolically—and how that small gesture has become a quiet source of hope in my journey with Schizoaffective Disorder. Whether in a book, a journal, or the calendar itself, turning the page has reminded me that endings aren’t final—they’re transitions, and they make space for something new.

This week, as I closed a journal I had been writing in for months, I paused before starting the next one. I held that final page a little longer, rereading some entries, honoring all I had moved through. Then I turned the page. Blank, untouched, full of possibility. That moment reminded me that I am not stuck—I am always moving, evolving, beginning again.

As the month ends today, I feel that same energy. March held a mix of calm and chaos, softness and struggle. But now, I get to turn the page. I don’t need to carry everything with me—just the wisdom, just the love. The rest, I can leave behind.

Turning the page doesn’t mean forgetting—it means continuing. And there’s courage in that.

To those reading this, I encourage you to take a moment today to acknowledge how far you’ve come this month. Even if it didn’t go the way you hoped, you made it through. You’re here. That’s enough.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence has helped me keep turning the pages. Together, let’s move gently into the next one—with openness, grace, and a quiet kind of strength.

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March 28, 2025 - The Reassurance of Familiar Sounds

Today, I want to reflect on the quiet reassurance I’ve found in familiar sounds, and how tuning into them has helped me feel grounded while managing my Schizoaffective Disorder. Sounds carry comfort—like a thread connecting the present moment to something known, steady, and safe.

This week, I paid closer attention to the sounds that bring me peace. The click of the kettle as it finishes boiling, the hum of a fan in the background, the pages of a book turning, or a song I’ve listened to a hundred times. These aren’t loud or dramatic, but they offer a kind of soft structure that soothes me without asking anything in return.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I sat quietly and listened to rain tapping gently on the roof. I didn’t do anything else—I just listened. That rhythm, so natural and familiar, helped calm a storm inside my mind. It reminded me that not everything needs to be solved—some things are meant to be felt, observed, and let pass.

Familiar sounds are like little anchors I can reach for. When the world feels overstimulating or my thoughts spiral, returning to these sounds brings me back to myself. It’s a form of presence that doesn’t require words—just awareness.

To those reading this, I encourage you to notice the sounds that bring you comfort. Maybe it’s a song, a voice, the wind, or even the quiet. Let those sounds be part of your healing, your safety, your peace.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence is a reassuring sound in itself. Together, let’s embrace the gentle power of the familiar to remind ourselves we are held, even in silence.

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March 26, 2025 - The Steadiness of a Favorite Routine

Today, I want to reflect on the steadiness that comes from repeating a favorite routine—and how returning to familiar rhythms has helped me feel more secure while managing my Schizoaffective Disorder. In a world that can sometimes feel unpredictable or overwhelming, routines become anchors, gently reminding me that there are parts of life I can shape and trust.

This week, I returned to a morning routine that I had slowly drifted away from—waking up early, making tea, opening the window for fresh air, and spending a few quiet minutes journaling. It’s simple, but doing those steps in that same order gave me a sense of control, a rhythm that calmed the start of each day.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I noticed how my body relaxed the second I began the routine. It was like muscle memory met emotional safety—I didn’t have to think, just move gently through each step, knowing what came next. That predictability made space for my mind to rest.

What I’ve realized is that favorite routines don’t have to be elaborate. They’re not about perfection—they’re about consistency and care. Even brushing my hair slowly, listening to the same soft playlist, or lighting a candle in the evening has become a kind of ritual that grounds me.

To those reading this, I encourage you to return to (or create) a small routine that brings you peace. It doesn’t have to change your whole day—it just needs to support your heart in the quietest way.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that stability can be found in the simplest actions. Together, let’s embrace the steadiness of a favorite routine to feel more rooted, more present, and more at ease.

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March 24, 2025 - The Healing in Letting Myself Daydream

Today, I want to reflect on the quiet healing I’ve found in letting myself daydream—and how allowing my imagination to wander freely has brought comfort and creativity to my journey with Schizoaffective Disorder. In a life often marked by intensity and structure, daydreaming has become a soft escape, a space where I can explore possibility without pressure.

This week, I gave myself permission to simply sit and let my mind drift. I imagined walking through peaceful forests, sitting in sunlit gardens, creating stories and scenes that didn’t need to be shared or polished—just felt. These gentle mental wanderings became a balm for my nervous system, offering lightness on days that felt heavy.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I imagined an alternate version of myself—not “better,” just free. In that imagined space, I saw myself moving through the world without fear, engaging with people openly, laughing without self-doubt. That version of me reminded me that hope isn’t always rooted in logic—sometimes, it’s born in the quiet corners of our minds.

Letting myself daydream also sparked creativity. Ideas for poems, stories, and reflections surfaced naturally, without force. These dreamy moments reminded me that not every thought needs to be productive—some are just meant to be enjoyed.

To those reading this, I encourage you to give yourself the freedom to daydream. Let your mind explore without expectation. Whether you’re picturing a quiet cabin in the mountains, a life filled with peace, or something completely surreal, your imagination is a sanctuary you can always return to.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that it’s okay to drift sometimes. Together, let’s embrace the healing in letting ourselves daydream—to rest, to create, and to gently believe in what could be.

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March 21, 2025 - The Serenity of Wind on My Skin

Today, I want to reflect on the quiet serenity of feeling the wind on my skin and how this simple experience has helped me stay present while managing my Schizoaffective Disorder. There’s something grounding about the way the wind moves—sometimes gentle, sometimes strong, but always constant, always moving forward.

This week, I made a point to step outside and simply feel the air around me. Whether it was a cool morning breeze or the way the wind carried the scent of the season, I let myself fully experience it. It was a reminder that no matter how still or heavy my thoughts felt, the world around me was always in motion, encouraging me to keep going.

One of the most meaningful moments came when a sudden gust of wind brushed against me while I was lost in thought. It was as if nature itself was reminding me to return to the present—to breathe, to feel, to let go. That simple sensation brought a kind of clarity I hadn’t realized I needed.

Letting the wind move around me also became a quiet comfort. I imagined it carrying away my worries, shifting the weight of my thoughts like fallen leaves. It reminded me that change, even when invisible, is always happening, and that I don’t need to have all the answers in any given moment.

To those reading this, I encourage you to take a moment to step outside and feel the wind. Let it remind you that life is always flowing, that you are part of something bigger, and that movement—whether fast or slow—is still progress.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that even the simplest things can bring peace. Together, let’s embrace the serenity of the wind and allow it to carry us forward, one gentle breath at a time.

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March 19, 2025 - The Stillness of Watching Shadows

Today, I want to reflect on the quiet stillness I’ve found in watching shadows and how this simple act has helped me feel more present while managing my Schizoaffective Disorder. Shadows shift and change with time, moving across the walls and ground in a slow, steady rhythm—reminding me that everything, even the difficult moments, is temporary.

This week, I took time to observe the way shadows stretched in the morning light and softened in the late afternoon. I watched how tree branches cast delicate patterns on the ground and how the flicker of candlelight created gentle movements on my walls. These small moments of stillness reminded me that even in silence, there is beauty.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I noticed my own shadow as I walked. Seeing it move alongside me felt strangely reassuring, like a quiet companion that followed my every step. It reminded me that I am always moving forward, even when it doesn’t feel like it.

Watching shadows also became a way to slow down my thoughts. Instead of getting caught up in worries, I let myself simply observe—how light changes, how time passes, how nothing ever stays the same for too long. That realization brought me a sense of calm, a reminder that life moves in cycles and that I, too, am constantly growing.

To those reading this, I encourage you to take a moment to watch the way shadows move throughout your day. Let them remind you that change is natural, that stillness is valuable, and that there is peace in simply observing the world around you.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that even in quiet, unnoticed moments, there is meaning. Together, let’s embrace the stillness of watching shadows to find peace and perspective in the passing of time.

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March 17, 2025 - The Comfort of a Warm Drink

Today, I want to reflect on the quiet comfort of holding a warm drink and how this small, simple ritual has helped me feel more present while managing my Schizoaffective Disorder. There’s something soothing about wrapping my hands around a warm mug, feeling the gentle heat, and taking slow sips—it’s a moment of calm that asks nothing of me except to be here.

This week, I paid more attention to my morning tea, letting it be more than just a routine. I took a moment to inhale the steam, notice the subtle flavors, and feel the warmth travel through me. That small act of mindfulness turned a simple habit into a grounding experience, a gentle way to start my day with stillness.

One of the most meaningful moments came in the evening when I made a cup of chamomile tea before bed. As I held the mug, I reminded myself that this was a small act of self-care, a quiet signal that it was time to unwind. In a world that often feels rushed, taking this moment to slow down felt like a kind gift to myself.

Drinking something warm also became a way to find comfort during anxious moments. Instead of forcing myself to push through the feeling, I let the warmth of the cup anchor me. It reminded me that sometimes, the simplest things—like a sip of tea, the scent of coffee, or the smooth texture of a ceramic mug—can bring a sense of peace.

To those reading this, I encourage you to take a moment to fully experience a warm drink. Notice how it feels, smells, and tastes. Let it be a small but powerful act of care for yourself.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that comfort can be found in even the smallest rituals. Together, let’s embrace the warmth of a drink to nurture calm and mindfulness in our daily lives.

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March 14, 2025 - The Peace in Watching Birds

Today, I want to reflect on the peace I’ve found in watching birds and how their presence has helped me feel more grounded while managing my Schizoaffective Disorder. There’s something calming about observing the way they move through the world, effortlessly gliding, perching, and singing without concern for time or worry.

This week, I took a few moments each day to simply watch birds outside my window. Whether it was a sparrow hopping along a branch, a crow surveying the world from a rooftop, or a group of pigeons gathering on a sidewalk, I noticed how they carried on with their routines, unaffected by the rush of daily life.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I saw a bird take flight after sitting still for a long while. It reminded me that we all have our own rhythms—times to rest, to wait, and to move forward when we’re ready. There was no urgency in its movement, just a natural flow, and that was a lesson I needed to see.

Watching birds also helped me feel more present. Instead of being caught up in my thoughts, I focused on their small, intentional actions—the way they tilted their heads, fluffed their feathers, or called out to one another. In that moment, my mind quieted, and I felt connected to something simple and pure.

To those reading this, I encourage you to take a moment to watch the birds around you. Let their lightness remind you to slow down, to embrace the present, and to trust your own pace.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that peace can be found in the smallest, most natural moments. Together, let’s embrace the peace in watching birds to find stillness, beauty, and calm in our everyday lives.

Mind Notes

March 12, 2025 - The Gentle Comfort of Watching Candlelight

Today, I want to reflect on the gentle comfort I’ve found in watching candlelight and how this small ritual has helped me manage my Schizoaffective Disorder. There’s something soothing about the soft flicker of a flame, the way it moves without hurry, casting a warm glow that feels both calming and present.

This week, I made it a habit to light a candle in the evening and simply watch it for a few moments. I didn’t set any expectations—no need for deep reflection or productivity. I just let myself be there, noticing how the flame swayed with the air, how the shadows danced on the walls, how the room felt instantly cozier.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I focused on the steady rhythm of the flickering light. It reminded me that even in movement, there can be peace, just as in life—things are always shifting, but that doesn’t mean they have to be chaotic. Watching the flame helped me slow my thoughts and breathe a little deeper.

Lighting a candle also became a small act of self-care, a quiet signal to myself that it was time to unwind. It turned into a gentle transition from the busyness of the day into the stillness of the night, making my space feel more intentional and comforting.

To those reading this, I encourage you to take a moment to sit with candlelight, if you can. Let it remind you to slow down, to embrace warmth and stillness, to find peace in something so simple yet beautiful.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that light—both literal and metaphorical—can be found even in the quietest moments. Together, let’s embrace the gentle comfort of watching candlelight to create space for calm and reflection.

Mind Notes

March 10, 2025 - The Grounding Power of Walking Barefoot

Today, I want to reflect on the grounding power of walking barefoot and how reconnecting with the earth in this simple way has helped me feel more present while managing my Schizoaffective Disorder. There’s something deeply calming about feeling the ground directly beneath me—solid, steady, and always there.

This week, I took a few moments each day to step outside without shoes, letting my feet sink into the cool grass, smooth pavement, or even the soft carpet indoors. The direct contact with the ground made me feel more connected to my body, as if I was releasing tension with every step.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I stood in my backyard in the early morning, the dew still clinging to the grass. Closing my eyes, I focused on the sensations—how the earth felt beneath me, the way the cool air touched my skin, the sounds of birds in the distance. In that moment, I felt fully present, no longer lost in my thoughts but completely here.

Walking barefoot also became a way to reset after overwhelming moments. Instead of trying to push through stress, I would pause, step onto the ground, and take a few deep breaths. It reminded me that no matter what’s happening in my mind, I can always return to the steady foundation beneath me.

To those reading this, I encourage you to try walking barefoot, even if just for a few moments. Let yourself feel the textures, the temperature, the small details of the world beneath you. Sometimes, the simplest connections—like feet to earth—can be the most grounding.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that connection exists all around us. Together, let’s embrace the grounding power of walking barefoot to find stillness, balance, and peace.

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March 7, 2025 - The Quiet Strength of Doing Nothing

Today, I want to reflect on the quiet strength I've found in allowing myself to do nothing. In a world that constantly pushes for productivity, learning to embrace stillness has been an important part of managing my Schizoaffective Disorder.

This week, I gave myself permission to pause. There were moments when I simply sat in silence, stared out the window, or let time pass without filling it with a task. At first, I felt uneasy, as if I should be doing something "useful." But the more I leaned into the stillness, the more I realized that rest itself is valuable—it doesn't need to be earned.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I spent an afternoon just lying down, listening to soft music, and letting my thoughts drift. Instead of trying to control or analyze them, I simply observed them, like clouds passing in the sky. This small act of doing nothing became a form of self-care, reminding me that my worth isn't tied to how much I accomplish in a day.

Giving myself space to do nothing also helped quiet my mind. Without the usual rush of distractions, I noticed how much calmer I felt. It was a reminder that sometimes, slowing down is exactly what I need to regain clarity and peace.

To those reading this, I encourage you to take a moment to simply exist—without expectations, without pressure. Let yourself rest, breathe, and be still. Sometimes, the most healing thing we can do is nothing at all.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that stillness has its own kind of strength. Together, let's embrace the quiet power of doing nothing and allow ourselves the rest we deserve.

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March 5, 2025 - The Comfort of Scent and Memory

Scents have a way of carrying memories, evoking emotions, and creating a sense of calm, often without us even realizing it.

This week, I found myself drawn to familiar scents—freshly brewed tea in the morning, the pages of an old book, and a soft lavender candle I hadn't lit in a while. Each scent brought with it a feeling of nostalgia and warmth, reminding me of moments when I felt safe and at ease.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I smelled a particular soap that reminded me of childhood. The instant familiarity transported me to a different time, reminding me that memories live in more than just thoughts—they exist in the senses, waiting to be rediscovered. That simple scent made me feel comforted, as if I was reconnecting with a part of myself that had been tucked away.

Scents also became a tool for relaxation. On a restless evening, I took a few moments to breathe in the calming aroma of chamomile tea. Focusing on the scent helped slow my thoughts, bringing me back to the present and making it easier to unwind.

To those reading this, I encourage you to notice the scents that bring you comfort. Whether it's a familiar perfume, a favorite food, or the fresh air after rain, allow yourself to pause and take it in. Sometimes, the smallest sensory experiences can offer the most peace.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that comfort is often found in the little things. Together, let's embrace the power of scent and memory to bring warmth and grounding into our lives.

Mind Notes

March 3, 2025 - The Comfort of Watching the Rain

Today, I want to reflect on the calmness I've found in watching the rain and how this simple act has helped me feel more present while managing my Schizoaffective Disorder. There's something soothing about the rhythm of raindrops, the way they fall without hurry, washing over everything in a quiet, steady way.

This week, I took time to sit by the window during a rain shower. Instead of distracting myself with my phone or letting my thoughts race, I just watched. The droplets on the glass, the sound of rain tapping against the ground, the way the world seemed to slow down—it all made me feel more connected to the present moment.

One of the most meaningful moments came when I stepped outside for a few minutes, letting the cool air and soft drizzle touch my skin. There was something grounding about it, a reminder that nature moves at its own pace, unbothered by the rush of everyday life. It made me feel like I could breathe a little easier.

Watching the rain also helped ease some anxious thoughts. Instead of feeling caught up in my worries, I imagined them being carried away with each drop, soaking into the earth and disappearing. It was a small but powerful way to reset my mind.

To those reading this, I encourage you to take a moment to watch the rain next time it falls. Let yourself listen, observe, and simply be in its presence. Sometimes, the most calming things in life are the ones that require nothing from us—just our willingness to notice.

Thank you for being part of my journey and for your continuous support. Your presence reminds me that peace can be found in the simplest moments. Together, let's embrace the calmness of watching rain to bring a sense of stillness and renewal into our lives.